I have been at a serious impasse regarding life direction since the loss of my religion, breakdown of my marraige, homelessness, at all those wonderful things. All the motivating factors for my studies were no longer there, all that defined me ceased to be.
I am now finding my way as a single dad who sees his kids less than hed like to. Its a tough adjustment going from stay at home dad to weekend dad. However, i know what i want, i want to be as involved with my kids upbringing as much as possible. Ideally, i would like to have them 3 days a week overnight – that is the goal im kinda working towards although im realistic enough to know that i will have to approach this in an ad-hoc manner.
What this requires though is for me to have a liveable income, and at the moment my studies which are going nowhere is hampering my efforts. Univerisity at the moment means that i am sleepwalking towards being a teacher something which is cool and all that but considering that my studies was with the aims of being educated where i could be a progressive muslim academic its quite different to being a teacher. I lost my ideology anyway so i can no longer engage with it or try to be a polemicist for it. For the sake of income to be the family man i so desire to be again i need to work full time, that is not possible to do with full time studies at university. So what do i do? It came to me this week and it feels fucking awesome to find direction again.
I withdraw from university, and do a credit transfer to the ‘open university’. I can study at the open university part time which means i can work full time and get my finances sorted. It will take me 3 years to do the degree that i want to do at the open university which means it would only take me a year longer than to complete the degree im currently doing at Glasgow. But heres the really cool thing. The degree that i’m changing to doing instead is a LAW DEGREE!
I can’t wait, now i need to get these wheels moving…..
